Tuesday, March 15, 2005
A New Chapter?
Finally for the first time i deleted my livejournal. For Good. Period.
This has again become my little retreat to talk to myself.. and maybe ppl who are fated (or bored/cursed) enough to stumble and read my blog.
Hong kong trip was terrible.. but i should not stay on it for so long. Been feeling sad and stuff..
guess its time to move on.. its my fault in the first instance.. many things are fated. So jus let it be. I tried.
He has been busy..one should not demand so much.. guess what he says was right. It is always about me.. but not him or other ppl. I should learn.. i will learn..
4 days without cello left me quite abit out of control of my instrument.. Been quite in a foul mood.
No much attention was given to me.. I need some love.. but in another.. i hate it.
Deleted of my livejournal and my fridae. Decided for the first time to keep a low profile. maybe really really spend my last few mths ( my terminal diease, London cancer.., where once u at the fully blown stage u will have to move to london.. )
Anyone.. who can accept me, again.., i promise myself. The next one who comes along, i must be in monogamous with him. Jus him and me.. no clubs, no gay parties, gay gatherings.
Got headhunted for some commericals/dunno wat.. going for interview tomolo at 1 , kind of excited..
Tired of politics in school.. so dun wanna play for SLO..
Tired of love games.. i want a simple relationship.. (nothing seems simple)
I need some attention.. Some love.. = to some happiness for glenn, the little tiger..
who will be nice to offer me some?
This has again become my little retreat to talk to myself.. and maybe ppl who are fated (or bored/cursed) enough to stumble and read my blog.
Hong kong trip was terrible.. but i should not stay on it for so long. Been feeling sad and stuff..
guess its time to move on.. its my fault in the first instance.. many things are fated. So jus let it be. I tried.
He has been busy..one should not demand so much.. guess what he says was right. It is always about me.. but not him or other ppl. I should learn.. i will learn..
4 days without cello left me quite abit out of control of my instrument.. Been quite in a foul mood.
No much attention was given to me.. I need some love.. but in another.. i hate it.
Deleted of my livejournal and my fridae. Decided for the first time to keep a low profile. maybe really really spend my last few mths ( my terminal diease, London cancer.., where once u at the fully blown stage u will have to move to london.. )
Anyone.. who can accept me, again.., i promise myself. The next one who comes along, i must be in monogamous with him. Jus him and me.. no clubs, no gay parties, gay gatherings.
Got headhunted for some commericals/dunno wat.. going for interview tomolo at 1 , kind of excited..
Tired of politics in school.. so dun wanna play for SLO..
Tired of love games.. i want a simple relationship.. (nothing seems simple)
I need some attention.. Some love.. = to some happiness for glenn, the little tiger..
who will be nice to offer me some?
# posted by celloboi @ 8:02 AM 
